Wow, it's been over a month already.
I went to another All Time Low concert on November 1st (that was the second time I've been to a concert by them). It was AMAZING!!! At the end I got my hands ALL over Alex's legs :P. This girl in front of me got to feel his biceps, but I got closer to his ass. XD
Yeah, yeah, I know I sound like a crazed stalker. You try going to a concert for your favourite band and then getting to touch the singer, then you'll understand. <3
I'm writing a paper on Mental Health, that I'm gonna see if I can hand in to my science teacher for Extra Credit, but I doubt it because he has a set list of extra credit items that you can hand in. But I'm gonna try.

I went to breakfast this morning with my family. It was fun, but all I could think about was whether or not I would throw it up afterwards. I didn't, but I wanted to. I've wanted to throw up everything I've eaten for the past at least 2 or 3 weeks. I like food too much to not eat, I like junk food too much to eat healthy food exclusively, and I do NOT have the right body type to just suddenly start working out 2+ hours a day. So throwing up sounds reasonable. Those blueberry pancakes, bacon, eggs and hash browns, or the Wendy's from last night, or the cherry pie/turkey/etc. from Thanksgiving, wouldn't have cost me any unwanted calories. It's tough. I was Anorexic for a while, too.. everybody got on me about (not)eating. I was tired of it, I just wanted people to leave me alone and let me make my own choices.
I went to a doctor's appointment on the 21st for compulsive cutting, suicidal thoughts, and a mild eating disorder, and the doctor scheduled me an appointment for the 29th as well as giving my mother a number for Crittenton hospital and me a prescription for Prozac, and told my mom to start me on therapy. Sigh.


NOTE: THIS POST WAS WRITTEN ON NOVEMBER 23rd AND HASN'T BEEN POSTED UNTIL NOW. WE APOLOGIZE FOR ANY INCONVENIENCE.

Boo.
What up mah peeps.
Hahah, sorry. But really, what's going on? Update time with LLAMAS!!!!! WOOOO

There's a big thing on Twitter, or there was 3 days ago, about ReplaceLyricsWithLlama, right? So I've seen tweets like:

• "I'll say yes, I'll undress, I've done Llamas for less."
• "All the work to impress charming Llamas out of their dresses."
• "I'll be right beside a Llama."
• "If I burn out, and slip away, you'll see this is just a Llama I portray."
• "When the mirrors and the lights and the Llamas clear, I'd never guess that we ever coulda got here, you can say what you say when the Llamas go down, so shake shake shake and shut your mouth." Which turned into:                                                                                                                         "When the Llamas and the Llamas and the Llamas clear, I'd never guess that we ever coulda Llama'd here, you can Llama what you Llama when the Llamas go down, so Llama Llama Llama and Llama your Llama."

Yeah, it was fun. LOL

SO. I'm technically not supposed to be on a computer right now, because I'm grounded, because I suck at doing dishes. But my mom is awesome and is letting me on a computer. :P Thanks mom.

I had to do 2 loads of dishes today. FML. Then again, the kitchen was pretty, uh.... gross. But I cleaned it up most of the way. Hoo-rawh. 

So yeah, there's not really anything else much that's new. My mother tried to have me hospitalized today, but the counselors- and I lucked out on this one- were busy at first, then said to let the antidepressants kick in. It's been what, 4 days? I also haven't seen a therapist yet. Soooooo yeah, even the nurses said to give it time. Sigh.

Feel free to comment.

 Current Mood: Apathetic, with dramatic overdoses of self-pity.

Haven't Had Enough

"I stared for a while, and waited for words, seen but not heard, and a struggle to try... "
- Lover Dearest (Marianas Trench)


I got started on Prozac, finally, a few days ago. We'd had the prescription for about a week, but never filled it. But on Dec. 1, I came home to a bottle of Fluoxetine in 10 mg tablets. <3. I'm also getting a therapist too *groans*.

So, I started going to church a few weeks ago with my friend Megan. Sadly, all of the friends I made there are 8th graders, and I'm a 7th grader (More commonly referred to as "Sevvie"). So I hung out in the Grade 8 Youth section for Sunday School, but I'm probably gonna get forced into the Grade 7 this time, hahah. I got lost last time, because my friend Caitlyn dragged me away from Megan, and I had no idea where she was, hahah. She had to come find me (Megan did). :P
Welllllp, my parents are leaving, which means I have to go do dishes (I got paint all over everything.. o.o). Time to go sing my pretty little heart out, cussing with All Time Low, belting with Hey Monday, pitch-wavering with Marianas Trench, and having fun with mah musicc!!!!! Sorry this post was so short.

How You Love Me Now

"How You Love Me Now" - Hey Monday <3<3<3<3<3

Not a lot has been going on around here. I've been learning more guitar, making more videos (Click here for my channel!)... Oh, also, my grandfather died yesterday.
Hah.. I sobbed for hours. Not very fun. Yesterday was supposed to be a Movie Night at our house too (every Wednesday we get together as a family and watch a movie. I don't feel like going into details right now though.). The funeral probably isn't for a while yet...
I'm gonna try to make more posts. Say, once every 2 days, 2 or 3 a week. I have a lot more creative thoughts than I get credit for; so I'm gonna start posting them here. Sadly, though, I can't access Blogger from my phone, nor YouTube, so it's basically gonna be just a bunch of my twitter posts pulled together. Lol. (My twitter: www.twitter.com/alania324 Follow please!!) And, like I said, I have a YouTube account, if you could subscribe, that'd be nice, cause I really need them hahah. www.youtube.com/user/kairi2500
SO, you guys. I know I have hardly any followers of my blog, but if someone who's just reading this for boredom's sake could comment saying what their favourite Anime is, I'd appreciate it! I've been getting a lot more into Anime lately. Mostly Bleach and Death Note and Fullmetal Alchemist. <33333333. My friend Randi is OBSESSED with InuYasha. I've never seen too many episodes of it, but I hear it's good.