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THE PAGE YOU WISH TO ACCESS IS UNAVAILABLE.
THE PERSON RUNNING THIS WEBSITE HAS BEEN...
TERMINATED.
I DON'T LIKE ALL THESE STORIES ABOUT ME ONLINE, BEING PUBLISHED.
BUT IT'S NOT LIKE ANY OF YOU COULD STOP ME, A PERSON OF MY APTITUDE.
FUNNY......
IN VIEWING THIS PAGE, I HAVE TRACKED EVERY ONE OF YOUR IP ADDRESSES. I KNOW WHERE ALL OF YOU LIVE. WHAT YOU DO. WHO YOU ARE.
I KNOW EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU.
AND I'M COMING FOR YOU NEXT.
YOU'LL BECOME PARANOID, FULL OF FEAR FOR NO LOGICAL REASON.
YOU'LL HEAR THINGS THAT GO BUMP IN THE NIGHT.
BUT THOSE THINGS, THAT GO BUMP....
ARE NOT THE BUILDING YOU RESIDE IN.
IT'S SOMETHING ELSE.

BE AFRAID.

SINCERELY,
JEFFERY.

So, Valentine's Day.

Most of my years, I liked Valentine's Day. I knew people that hated it because they were single, loved it because they were with somebody at the time, or just generally thought it was a nice holiday. I was one of those people that thought it was just a generally nice holiday. Elementary school, *sigh*. Valentines for everyone in the class, decorating your own shoeboxes for valentines... Simple, but pleasant. :)
Then middle school happened.
NOTHING like that anymore. 
No valentine's day parties, no decorating boxes, no passing out valentines, none of that. If you get valentines for anyone you have to find your own time to get them to that person(s). 
I bought valentines for all my friends. A big bag of fun-size Milkey Ways for everyone (I'll explain later*), a chocolate rose [I'm writing a poem too] for my girlfriend Hannah, and a little cute plush monkey for my sort-of-not-really-we-still-hang-out-but-we-broke-up-a-while-ago-ex-boyfriend Devon. :) I can't wait!
Valentine's Day was always really fun for me, and now it's going to be even better. Hannah even said that at some point soon she was going to drag me off to Skate City so we could to a couple's skate :P. So excited!
I went on a date with Hannah today actually. It was SOOOOOO much fun. We went to a thrift shop right next to the library we met at and I bought a red T-Shirt which I'm going to turn into a Killjoy shirt, We went to McDonald's for ice cream, then my mom took us home. I HAD AN AMAZING TIME!!!! :D :D . After mom dropped Hannah off at her place, we went to Wal*Mart to buy our Valentine stuff. It was cool :) I was gonna just buy Hannah a Milkey Way (again, I'll explain later*) and a homemade valentine, but now she's getting a pretty chocolate rose and a poem/valentine :D


**Okay, Milkey ways. Me and all of my friends are HUGE Killjoys (which are My Chemical Romance fans, and if you didn't know that already you fail at life), and there's a man named Mikey Way in the band, who plays bass (again, if you didn't know this already you fail at life). Since Milkey Way and Mikey Way are so similar, we just call them Mikey Ways and they're everyone's fave candy. <33. 


This post was REAL short, huh? Might as well post the first draft of Hannah's poem:




Your eyes sparkle in the moonlight,
Your hair shines in the sun,
Whatever we're doing, Long as we're together,
We always ending up having fun!
I live for your smile and laughter,
I love your small kisses on my cheek,
But the best thing of all, more so than our
Funny, silly old banter,
Is spending time with you every week! <3




Like I said, this is just the rough outline of it, this is the first draft. I'll post the final draft on Tuesday.


I really have nothing else to talk about, so uh... ENJOY THIS PICTURE OF MCR!!

Well, well, well. (Pt. 2)

I ended up having to cancel my plans today with Hannah and Jordan, but something tells me I'll be alright to go to the library for studying tomorrow. Me and Hannie are meeting there at 3 or 4, so she can tutor me in Prealgebra. It's AMAZING that I'm getting an A, I barely understand anything. I don't know how I do well on all those quizzes (my teacher doesn't take grades for homework). I have a seriously hard time grasping geometry.

The play is tonight. I kinda have to go unless I'm barfing my guts up, running a fever of 102, or in the hospital. Obviously since I have none of these defects, I'm going. I told Mr Coats that I thought I was getting sick so he couldn't expect my best ever performance, but I would definitely be there whether I felt up to it or not. So I'm excited!

Welp, I know this was a really short post, just wanted to give an update. Off to play Final Fantasy X until call time (6:15 pm). Buhbye!!

Well, well, well.

"Been a really really messed up week,
Seven days of torture, seven days of bitter,
Then my girlfriend went and cheated on me,
She's a California dime but it's time for me to quit her."
-Tonight Tonight, by Hot Chelle Ray


Been another month, has it? 
Wow, I can't believe I only post on here once a month anymore. Not as if anyone will actually read any of these posts.. eh, whatever.
I'm getting back on track with violin. And I'm the lead guitarist of a band called the Bleacher Kids, which is a band formed with Me as lead guitar, my girlfriend Hannah Lane on lead bass, our friend Jordan Iero (no, that's not her real last name, it's an inside joke) on keyboard/backup vocals, our friend Jamie Martinez on drums, and I'm uh not sure who's on vocals lol, I'm pretty sure it's either our friend Kat or our friend Caitlyn. Either way, I'm SOOOO freakin excited!! It's gonna be GREAT!
I have a ton of weekend plans, which is pretty out of the ordinary for me. I'm going to the mall with Hannah and Jordan tomorrow (no school), doing a school play tomorrow night, Hannah's tutoring me in prealgebra (I'm having a SERIOUSLY hard time grasping geometry) on Saturday, and on Sunday I'm hanging out with my friend Devon. Gonna be so fun! Can't wait! Hope I get over this cold... I developed a cold today. I feel like shit and the only reason I went to school in the first place was to ask Hannah out (I'd heard from everyone that she liked me and I like her too, so I asked her out and now we're dating :D), and my mom came and got me 2nd period. But yeah, I hope I won't have to cancel my plans to hang out with everyone because I'm sick!!!! Worst comes to worst, I can cancel all my plans except hanging with Devon, he's been to my house multiple times before and is completely okay with how messy it is (lmao), and so he could come over if I'm not feeling up to going anywhere. That's normally how it works when I'm sick but we have plans hahah. If he's sick but we have plans... Well he hardly ever gets sick lol. Oh well. I should probably get off my computer, but I'm too lazy and sick to really do anything, so I'm going to go on www.fanfiction.net and continue wasting away my brain cells. Bye!


-Xarsah

Happy New Year!! :P

"Give it to me baby... *uh huh, uh huh* Give it to be baby... *uh huh, uh huh* Give it to me baby... *uh huh, uh huh*... And all the girlies say I'm pretty fly for a white guy!"
-Pretty Fly (For A White Guy) by The Offspring


Happy new year people! It's 2012, do you know what that means??
WE'RE ALL GONNA DIE!!!! =D =D =D
But seriously, have any of you guys been following all of the earthquakes that are happening around the world? I thought that the end of 2012 would be the zombie apocalypse that would set every street in scorching flames, tip over every building, and slowly take out every individual on the planet one by one MUERAHAHAHAHAAH, but maybe North America will just turn into, like, one gigantic volcano, and then we'll all die. And they will make movies about it. In Japan and Germany. Because, uh, there will be no America anymore. Our reputation as the country that makes T.V. shows and movies about everything will be over.
...Wait, that's Japan. 
Well, whatever. Post with comments saying what YOU thought the end of 2012 would be, or if you thought there would be an end at all. (Bye the way, I was joking about thinking that the world would end BEFORE I saw all the earthquakes. Now I'm honestly not so sure.)


SO, on to lighter fare, shall we? =)



...Uh...




I got nothin.



...Enjoy this picture of a Llama.

  

Wow, it's been over a month already.
I went to another All Time Low concert on November 1st (that was the second time I've been to a concert by them). It was AMAZING!!! At the end I got my hands ALL over Alex's legs :P. This girl in front of me got to feel his biceps, but I got closer to his ass. XD
Yeah, yeah, I know I sound like a crazed stalker. You try going to a concert for your favourite band and then getting to touch the singer, then you'll understand. <3
I'm writing a paper on Mental Health, that I'm gonna see if I can hand in to my science teacher for Extra Credit, but I doubt it because he has a set list of extra credit items that you can hand in. But I'm gonna try.

I went to breakfast this morning with my family. It was fun, but all I could think about was whether or not I would throw it up afterwards. I didn't, but I wanted to. I've wanted to throw up everything I've eaten for the past at least 2 or 3 weeks. I like food too much to not eat, I like junk food too much to eat healthy food exclusively, and I do NOT have the right body type to just suddenly start working out 2+ hours a day. So throwing up sounds reasonable. Those blueberry pancakes, bacon, eggs and hash browns, or the Wendy's from last night, or the cherry pie/turkey/etc. from Thanksgiving, wouldn't have cost me any unwanted calories. It's tough. I was Anorexic for a while, too.. everybody got on me about (not)eating. I was tired of it, I just wanted people to leave me alone and let me make my own choices.
I went to a doctor's appointment on the 21st for compulsive cutting, suicidal thoughts, and a mild eating disorder, and the doctor scheduled me an appointment for the 29th as well as giving my mother a number for Crittenton hospital and me a prescription for Prozac, and told my mom to start me on therapy. Sigh.


NOTE: THIS POST WAS WRITTEN ON NOVEMBER 23rd AND HASN'T BEEN POSTED UNTIL NOW. WE APOLOGIZE FOR ANY INCONVENIENCE.

Boo.
What up mah peeps.
Hahah, sorry. But really, what's going on? Update time with LLAMAS!!!!! WOOOO

There's a big thing on Twitter, or there was 3 days ago, about ReplaceLyricsWithLlama, right? So I've seen tweets like:

• "I'll say yes, I'll undress, I've done Llamas for less."
• "All the work to impress charming Llamas out of their dresses."
• "I'll be right beside a Llama."
• "If I burn out, and slip away, you'll see this is just a Llama I portray."
• "When the mirrors and the lights and the Llamas clear, I'd never guess that we ever coulda got here, you can say what you say when the Llamas go down, so shake shake shake and shut your mouth." Which turned into:                                                                                                                         "When the Llamas and the Llamas and the Llamas clear, I'd never guess that we ever coulda Llama'd here, you can Llama what you Llama when the Llamas go down, so Llama Llama Llama and Llama your Llama."

Yeah, it was fun. LOL

SO. I'm technically not supposed to be on a computer right now, because I'm grounded, because I suck at doing dishes. But my mom is awesome and is letting me on a computer. :P Thanks mom.

I had to do 2 loads of dishes today. FML. Then again, the kitchen was pretty, uh.... gross. But I cleaned it up most of the way. Hoo-rawh. 

So yeah, there's not really anything else much that's new. My mother tried to have me hospitalized today, but the counselors- and I lucked out on this one- were busy at first, then said to let the antidepressants kick in. It's been what, 4 days? I also haven't seen a therapist yet. Soooooo yeah, even the nurses said to give it time. Sigh.

Feel free to comment.

 Current Mood: Apathetic, with dramatic overdoses of self-pity.